I'm screwed

I actually almost started crying in the middle of class at college today. Today has been horrible!!!

It all started in my Health and Social Care class when I approached my teacher to ask for the improvements for the finished first section of coursework I mentioned I handed in the other day. Instead of getting improvements, I got my whole work back and crossed out with a shit load of notes. Apparently she was "disappointed in me". The only problem she had was that I used the Internet to help me.

We are allowed to use the Internet in our work as long as it's referenced (which it was), she just wanted me to try use a bunch of crap that she had written and try put it in my own words. She then went in to say that she had told me to use her stuff before, but she hadn't!!! Also, the stuff she wanted me to use says the same shit that the Internet does. The WORST thing is, is that because I was behind, I would give her pieces of coursework as I was writing them and she would mark them. When she would mark them she always ticked them if they were good and would give improvements here and there if they weren't. All this time, she NEVER mentioned that everything was wrong (well, wrong in her mind at least).

So yeah, basically I have to start the whole coursework again. Yes, from the beginning. This is totally messed up and now I'm screwed. This coursework is never getting finished.

Anyway, I went to speak to my Assistant Divisional Leader (person who basically helps students and crap), who is also my Sociology teacher, who turned out to not be in her office as she was teaching. So instead I sent her an email explaining the situation. I've seen her before about my Health and Social Care teacher, to discuss the stress I feel like she is causing way too much of. In the email I basically said that I barely even feel like attending this stressful lesson anymore and how the stress is physically affecting me. I've barely had any sleep lately, earlier this morning my hands were shaking (they've started again now) and my stomach has also been in severe pain. Earlier tonight I also feel like I've been seeing things.. To quote The Hunger Games, I don't even know what's real or not real anymore.

All she had to reply was that we would discuss it in one of my free periods (a time slot which I have no lessons) tomorrow, something which I feel like the two of us are becoming familiar with now. I'm a bit bummed with the free period choice as I planned to go meet a friend in the IT suite. Sure I might get out of seeing my ADL/teacher early but the IT suite is likely to be busy tomorrow. Guess why...

A2 Level results day.

That's right, tomorrow morning I will find out how good or bad I did in that January Sociology exam that I freaked out over and blogged about a few months back. I felt confident after the exam but you never know, I may have failed miserably. So far I haven't done too bad in my overall A Levels but, as you've probably gathered by now, I stress and panic easily.

Going to bed now. Wish me luck with my results and also with this overwhelming amount of coursework!

☯♥☮ Abbie