UGH. Oh wait...

For fucks sake! My charger is not working again, the new one that I bought a few days ago that I mentioned here on my blog. Seriously, I wasn't joking about that curse.

Not much happened today anyway... Although I did watch Paranormal Activity 4. Creepy shit. Anyway, I'll post tomorrow! Battery's on 18% :(

**EDITED** Omg I'm such a dumbass! Turns out the switch wasn't turned on on the plug socket thingy. Someone please donate me a brain. Anyway at least I don't have to buy another charger and will be able to have a fully charged phone tomorrow to listen to music with on the bus to and from college.

☯♥☮ Abbie

Stop procrastinating, Abbie

Almost forgot to blog today. Anyway, the stress is coming back! I have coursework for 2 classes that I am incredibly behind in that needs to be done. And on top of that, in the same classes, we have started doing exam material. Basically we are doing written work now that is based around revision. So now I have to do that AND the coursework!

It's all just getting too much. I never had this last year so I don't know why it randomly came about this year. I was sat in class today and the teacher was like "I want everyone's work complete by tomorrow". I was like "DAFUQ!!!???" Anyway, I went up to her and explained my situation and how stressed it was making me. She already knows how easily stressed I can get as I went through this with her before in January when I was trying to revise for my sociology exam at the same time as I was trying to do the coursework.

She said it was fine and that she "has no doubt she won't get my work from me". That's very true but still she needs to slow down. She is going through things WAY too fast. She also weirdly grabbed my arm in a death grip when she was having this talk with me. I was like "Ugh... are you trying to make me feel better or kill me?" Then I got 10 times more depressed and worked up when I discovered the girl next to me was on the last section of the coursework. Guys, I haven't even finished the first. No homo.

Really though it's all down to me. I need to stop procrastinating and focus on the work I need to do. I need to organise what I'm going to do and when. Luckily though I've nearly finished the first section if the coursework I was just discussing above. Finally, some progression.

I am super bad when it comes to concentration. If what I'm trying to do is boring, which the coursework is, then I just can't set my mind to it unless I'm at college in class doing it. That's because when I'm in class I obviously have to do it and feel more driven.

Moving on from that, the boiler was replaced today. The poor guy was in our house for 8 hours! Turns out there was something wrong with the wall where the boiler goes so he had to do a lot of plastering. Then my mums card for the gas wasn't working so had to order another and the meter had to be replaced. Luckily the meter was able to be replaced today by another guy and he put some money on it for us for free.

So yeah we now have hot water (yay!). Although we aren't turning on central heating until my mums new card comes, which should hopefully be in the next couple of days. That way my mum can put more money on it herself so that we have enough for the heating and hot water. The guy didn't put that much on so...

Ugh! My thumb is so sore, I burnt it on my hair straighteners early this morning. Still burns like hell. Random point but just felt like letting out the pain somewhere! Point of the paragraph = I'm a fucking clutz.

Anyway, going to bed now! For my new readers, no I'm not sleeping in the middle if the day. The time it says I post my blogs is wrong as it's set in the American timezone and I don't know why that is or how I can change it. It's actually 10:49 PM. Sleep well/have a good day, wherever you are in the world. My stats show I have English, American, German, Japan and Netherlands readers, so that's pretty awesome! Can't remember what other countries there were. Anyway, bye for now!

☯♥☮ Abbie

Change: good or bad?

Like I said yesterday there was little chance of me going back to college today as I had zero sleep. I had to lie on the hard floor of my bedroom with my pillows and quilt which didn't make for a peaceful night. I actually have a sore on my right elbow given to me by the floor which has been hurting quite a bit today. Guess it's just the way I sleep.

Basically what happened to my bed is it was pushing in like it was going to fall through. So me and my mum went out this morning to a local store which my mum thought sold beds. Turns out they didn't, it was more of an appliances place. So now I have to look online for one.

On a lighter note, the boiler is getting replaced and fixed tomorrow, so we will have hot water, central  heating as again. Thank God!

I also managed to find a good quality upload of Silver Linings Playbook on YouTube. I wasn't quite happy with how they changed a lot of the story and it's structure. The book was better. However, if you're looking at the movie as a whole and ignoring that, then it was very good and I enjoyed it.

Jennifer Lawrence's performance really stood out! Yeah she's like my role model and think she amazing but that does not change my opinion. Her acting was incredible and emotional regardless. She was definitely desrrving of the Oscar she won for the role. I respect Robert De Niro very much and think he's a superb actor, although the changes with his character bothered me most, I think. In the book his character, Patrick, ignores his son Pat for a lot of the time and takes little interest in what he does. Whereas in the movie, De Niro played a loving and concerned father that did the opposite and interacted and communicated with his son a lot. I also didn't understand why they had to change the name of Pat's mum. In the book it is Jeanie, in the movie it's Dolores. Another pointless change. Anyway that was just something small that I'd noticed and couldn't stop thinking about. Another one of the big changes was how the characters Nikki (who was being posed as by the character Tiffany) and Pat didn't exchange many letters. Pat also didn't seem to mind that much that Tiffany had lied to him, whereas in the book he was distraught.

Don't let my rant with the changes made in the movie discourage you from watching the movie, though. Whether you have or haven't read the book, or like/dislike the changes, it is still an inspiring, funny and very real movie. It addresses the issue of the stigma people give people with mental illnesses and that things need to change. People need to understand the situation before making harsh judgements and giving people labels.

Now I shall go make up for all the sleep I lost last night. Goodnight everybody!

☯♥☮ Abbie

P.s. Click here to go to part 1 of Silver Linings Playbook uploaded to YouTube. The remaining parts can be found on the YouTube channel of the user that uploaded the part 1 video that the link takes you to. Just click his username 'Tenzin Lekphel' that is below the video and it will direct you to his channel where you can watch the rest of the parts. Each part is about 15 minutes long. Enjoy the movie!

Just my luck

So here I am about to go to sleep when I feel my bed slowly going through. Just my luck! Needless to say, I need a new bed. I told my mum and she was like "I don't know what to do" so now I'm basically sat here on the fucking ground writing this blogpost. Random thing to point out but my finger really stings :/

Anyway I finally finished Silver Linings Playbook. Wow is all I can say. Such an amazing story! Although the book revolves around the character of Pat, I found the character Tiffany to be very interesting and would have loved to see the story from her side of things. Mainly because she says very little for the first half of the book, so it would be fun to know what's going through her mind.

Speaking of Silver Linings Playbook, JENNIFER LAWRENCE WON THE OSCAR FOR BEST ACTRESS FOR HER PORTRAYAL OF TIFFANY IN SILVER LININGS PLAYBOOK! Could not be more happier, it made my whole weekend! She's such a beautiful, funny and down to earth person who deserves this award more than anyone.

Daniel Day Lewis won for best actor. I can't really give an opinion on the award outcome as I never saw Lincoln.

Anne Hathaway was also looking very beautiful. It was clear ever since the nominations were announced that she would win for best supporting actress, so I'm super pleased for her. She's such a sweet and genuine woman.

Anyway I'm going to end this blogpost here. Not sure what I'm going to do all night seeing as I don't have a bed to sleep in and my mum just keeps saying she doesn't know what to do about the situation. I'm supposed to be going back to college in the morning as well. Guess that's looking very unlikely as I'll be up all night sitting on the floor watching TV, listening to music or whatever, rather than being able to sleep like every other person in this freaking house.

☯♥☮ Abbie

Oscar Sunday

Today is one of the biggest days in Hollywood and for the movie industry. It's Oscar Sunday!

Like I said yesterday, I unfortunately can't watch the actual show but I will keep updated with everything that's going on via Twitter. Anyway, I've been watching the live red carpet special for a couple of hours now.

My ovaries almost exploded when I saw Jennifer Lawrence on my TV screen. She looks absolutely stunning and, if you know me, you know I'm rooting for her to win best actress tonight. She is extremely hilarious and probably my only ever girl crush. But seriously though, every time she opens her mouth I just want to be her!

Really love how her and Emma Stone are friends! Everyone who loves either of the actresses knows that there is a huge hope that one day they will star in a movie together. They are both just SO funny! It would be epic. I mean, did you hear Jennifer on the red carpet? Before the interview ended she pointed her face right into a camera and said "Wait, I told Emma Stone I would do this.... Your ass is mine, Stone!" Then it turned out that the camera she put her face into wasn't working. What a legend.

A lot of the celebrities though are looking incredible. Anne Hatheway looks elegant, Amanda Seyfried is gorgeous as usual, Adele looks beautiful and Quvenzhané Wallis is cute as a button! I love how they call her 'little Q'.

Anyway I'm going to get back and continue watching and stalking everything that's going on over on the red carpet of the Oscars. I will blog my reaction to the winners tomorrow!

☯♥☮ Abbie

Happy birthday to ME

Saturday, 23rd February 2013. Guess what day that is? *as you all think "it's in the title, idiot"* IT'S MA BIRFDAY!

Well it's been quite a day! Like I said, after yesterday I didn't want to celebrate too hard, I'm hopefully doing that next weekend. But my 2 sisters were both here so I got to spend some time with them. My sister and brother in law stayed the night last night and staying again tonight. They are leaving on Monday.

Underneath all the excitement of the day, it's also been quite sad underneath because my family has been super busy so spent a lot of the day going out and doing errands. So I've felt quite lonely which was upsetting...

But never mind that! I got to watch 'The Perks Of Being A Wallflower' today starring Emma Watson, Logan Lerman and Ezra Miller. I got it for my birthday as it only just got released on DVD last Monday (I think- 99% sure). It was such a beautiful movie and the fact that Stephen Chbosky, the author of the book, directed the movie made it even more perfect. He managed to capture all the things that make up the ups and downs that the characters go through during high school and with their family, friends and romantic relationships.

I really need to get back on track with reading Silver Linings Playbook though. I haven't managed to get very far due to how busy of a week it's been. But I will most definitely return to reading this brilliant story.

I can't believe it's the Oscars tomorrow. It's on really late here in the UK as we are ahead of America. The problem is though, I can't actually watch the show. I didn't realize this because I figured that E! would be showing it after the red carpet special, but they're not. All they're showing is the red carpet special (from 10:30pm-1:30am) and then repeating it as soon as its finishes (from 1:30am-4:30am). I'll watch the first showing, of course. Then they're replaying it again ALL throughout the week. We can watch the actual awards ceremony on Sky Movies but unfortunately I don't have that on my TV. So I'm just praying they will livestream it on their YouTube channel (which I doubt they will but it's worth a shot). If not I'll just have to hunt for clips the next day on YouTube, etc. Really hope Jennifer Lawrence wins best actress for Silver Linings Playbook.

I actually spent the time today to change my iPhone settings to America for my App Store, and for any other settings I could find that involved my location, so that I could download ABC. ABC is an American channel and the Oscars will be shown on it tomorrow. So I thought it would be a good idea as then I could watch the show from there, but when I was testing the app I saw I couldn't watch any shows because a notification came up saying it detected I was not in America so couldn't view the content. It's times like these that I hate living in England. Well that and when it snows.

Speaking of snow, it's been snowing today. I really hope it doesn't settle. I don't think it will though as its really light and the weather on my iPhone says its not supposed to snow again throughout the week.

Anyway, I'm going to have a nice sleep now! My cough is definitely coming back and it sucks :(

☯♥☮ Abbie

Long day

Ok I'm super annoyed right now because I just wrote this post (and it was really big) and then accidentally went off it!!! AAAAAAAH.

Anyway, as I have been saying, today was the day me and my family moved house. It's been incredibly tiring! I never thought that I would unpack and sort out everything that I brought over from the old house to my new bedroom in this new house. But I actually managed to do it all!

I have a lot of photos to share today so you can find them below at the end of the blogpost. Most are just random moments during the day.

My sister, brother in law, mums friend and my older brother who doesn't live with us anymore all came over to help with the move. A nice gathering but it's been very hectic and busy, not to mention there is also my niece and nephew. Therefore you could also say it's been pretty loud and messy.

As for my bedroom, I really love it! It's a lot larger than my old one and I've managed to make it look pretty good. My sister also gave me a nice Glee cover for my bed quilt. There's a lot more colour in this bedroom compared to my old one, which I really like as it makes the room more warm, fun and cute. [Photos below]

I can't believe it's my 18th birthday tomorrow! Like I said today was extremely tiring so I don't think I'm planning anything major for tomorrow that's going to use up my energy even more. My other sister is also coming over so me, my 2 sisters and possibly my mum might go to the cinema during the day just to have a chance to relax. I should probably decide on a movie then...

To be honest though the only movie I REALLY want to see right now isn't even coming out in cinema for another 9 months. Can you guess? CATCHING FIRE! If you live under a rock that's the second instalment of The Hunger Games Trilogy. I am soooooo excited for this movie, I'm a gigantic fan. They also released new photos for the movie, either today or last night, which made me even more pumped to see it in November. The photos show the lead characters, Katniss and Peeta, in their wedding outfits. Jennifer Lawrence looks stuff if as usual and Josh Hutcherson is just plain sexy. Joshiffer forever! [Photo below]

The reason I'm not sure when the photos were released is because my Internet went off last night at like 0:36am. It did that because obviously we were moving in the morning (today) so it had to be turned off. Luckily though we had a guy come over to re-do it and set it up again in this new house, along with the TV.

I think I'm going to have a well deserved sleep now, it's been one hell of a long day. Hope you're all happy and well :)

☯♥☮ Abbie

Catching Fire 

My room finished

My room in the making

Me and my niece, Layla, throughout the day

Last day

Feels weird to think that today (21st Feb) is the last day in this house and that we'll be moving in the morning. Luckily we have a moving van to take all the larger things like appliances and furniture such as beds and sofas. But still there are a lot of bags, especially in my room, to take up to the new house. Thank goodness it's not far away.

My sister and brother in law will also be helping us move stuff as they have a car so that obviously makes it more convenient and practical.

However, my mum was informed earlier today that the boiler is faulty and needs to be replaced, therefore we won't have heat or hot water for a couple of days. Mum says it should hopefully be back on Monday. In the meantime, she said we will just come to this house to take a wash/bath over the weekend.

Luckily though we have electrical fires/heaters (not sure on their actual name, I don't know the difference), that we can take up to the new house and use for heat. I already have one of my own in my current bedroom that I'm in now at this house, so that's helpful. All you have to do is plug them in.

Anyway I have a headache, probably because I'm hungry, which is why I'm going to eat now!

By the way, that girl I have mentioned in some of my blogposts who was being a bitch to me on Instagram even though we don't know each other as have never spoke, well yeah like I said last night she came back. She didn't end up being a total asshole which was good and instead started an entire conversation on One Direction. Bit random but ok...

A guy is coming to our new house tomorrow to fix up the TV and Internet so I should hopefully be able to blog. It will be written and posted in the evening though as obviously I'll be mega busy all day. I'll also hopefully take some photos throughout the day. Excited to move! (Also my 18th birthday in 2 days!)

☯♥☮ Abbie

Sleepless nights

Do you ever have those nights where you're like half asleep/half awake? Because I've been having them lately. It's difficult to put it into words but anyway it's been really bothering me, especially in the mornings.

When I wake up it leaves me feeling tired because I remember being half awake all night. Basically I'm asleep but I'm awake enough to the extent that I'm aware that I'm asleep and can still sense what's going on around me in the real world whilst I'm sleeping. (Ok I just re-read that and it might sound ultra confusing to your ears!)

I'm pretty sure this flu/thingy whatever-it-is-I-have is the cause of my "sleepless nights" as I call them. So I didn't go to the hospital today because this is the first day since half term started that I've had to get up early with this whole nose issue I've been describing in recent blogposts. It's just been making me feel so horrid on mornings and I literally was half dead in my bed just willing myself to fall asleep!

I've been coughing quite a bit today which also isn't good as I don't want to suffer through that AGAIN.

Anyway, I ended up getting out of the house later in the day after finally getting some extra sleep. I had to go out to the bank to cancel my old card and order a new one (because my mum kept it in her purse for safekeeping during this whole week of packing and preparing for the move, but she lost it). I also needed to change the address that is on my details with the bank seeing as we're moving on Friday.

Then I headed for home as my mum went off to return my charger that didn't work and get another. Thankfully, this new one has been working all day. When I got home I packed up all my clothes, except 1 outfit for Friday, and also put away the Blackberry I had been using whilst my iPhone was out of battery. My room is now totally empty except for 1 side which has my hair straighteners and a brush on for Friday. Cannot wait to move now!

Going to curl up warm in bed now and hopefully not have another sleepless night. But we'll see how it goes...

☯♥☮ Abbie

P.s. Had to come back to mention something that has just happened. So remember that girl I mentioned in a previous blogpost, you know... the really mean one. Well she has just commented on another one of my Instagram photos.
Her: Hi again
Me: Hi there :) (pretending to be nice in case she starts being a bitch again)
Her: Nice to hear you again
Me: You too! *thinking "wasnt it just yesterday that you said I look like a homeless bitch?"*
Her: Want to talk?
Me: Ok 
Her: So who do you like in One Direction?

What a wonderful way to start the conversation. Anyway I don't know why she's suddenly being nice to me after randomly hating on me the other day... I also just found out she's 11! An 11 year old with that dirty mouth she had??? Kids these days.

You don't realise how much clothes you actually own until you've packed up all the coat hangers

Told you I'm cursed

Hey so you know like yesterday I mentioned I have that curse with phone chargers or earphones. Yeah I wasn't lying.

So like I said I was going to get a new one today (well actually I ended up making my mum go get it), and when she came back with it I plugged it in and everything was fine. It showed my iPhone was charging so I went off to get a wash. Sounds good go far, huh?

Well no. I have this curse, duh! So after I came back I had noticed my iPhone was no longer charging, even though it was plugged in and everything else plugged in was on and working. So basically it tricked me and then stopped when I left the room. I spent £15 on that charger as well!

So it's now 6:36pm and I'm just worn out and not in the mood for this. All my stuff is packed so there's nothing much to do except watch boring TV downstairs with my mum or just troll around on the Internet. But because I can't use up my phone battery, I have had to unpack my stuff to search for my old Blackberry and use that instead.

Anyway I managed to find it along with it's charger so hopefully it should work. I mean I've used it before when this has happened and my sister also uses the charger to charge her phone we she comes to our house. But yeah, I can't handle any more bad luck. So at the moment I'm just using the battery I have left on my iPhone (34%) to write up this rant/blogpost.

I'm also about to read another chapter of Silver Linings Playbook. I've been reading 1 chapter a day seeing as I've been doing a lot this week. So far I'm enjoying it but I'm still quite close to the beginning so it hasn't gotten into it that much yet. I have to say though, the chapters are SO short (which is good in the sense that I'm reading 1 a day as it means I'm not delving into too much of the story). 1 chapter is about 4 or 5 page sides long.

Hope your day is better than mine at least! Would love to know if anybody else has these problems/curse...?

Shit, ok, battery's at 32% now. I'll be taking a good old (lol jk a depressing) trip to the hospital tomorrow for my hospital appointment so I'll write in tomorrow about it, when I have them and what happens during them.

Happy charging :)

☯♥☮ Abbie

Blue > Purple

Today I visited our new house with my mum. It's actually not far from where we're currently living but still better in quality.

Like I said, there is a pink room there which I planned to use as my bedroom. Turns out it was actually purple but still I love purple. Anyway, my mum totally forgot to mention that the painting of the walls in that room is pretty shit. The angle of the photo at the bottom of this blogpost shows the better side of the room as I didn't want to photograph the more ugly parts.

So I've now decided that I shall move into a different room, one with light blue walls (photo below). I wasn't that pleased with blue at first but now I'm not too bothered. I have a BUNCH of posters anyway. Plus the benefits of this room are that it's larger, the painting is neat, it has wardrobe space with a rail to hang clothes and has a second light switch at the opposite side of the room so that when you're in bed you don't have to get up (useful for lazy ass people such as myself).

Because I've packed all my stuff now, except those I mentioned yesterday that I haven't yet for obvious reasons, it makes we want to move even more because my room at the moment is so crowded with bags. Roll on Friday!

Another thing I did today was some shopping. I ordered a new mattress to be delivered to the new house on Friday (as I'm switching to a single bed now) and a chest of drawers which will also hold my television on top.

Once again, no coursework was completed today. There's always tomorrow... Oh yeah, except tomorrow I have to go out again and buy a new freakin' charger for my iPhone as my current one isn't working -.- Super annoyed! I am seriously (no exaggeration or lying here) cursed when it comes to phone chargers and earphones. They always work to start with but then all of a sudden don't work anymore after a couple of weeks. It isn't funny, I cannot tell you how much money I have used up on chargers and earphones!

Anyway I'm going to refresh my Instagram notifications because some weird chick is commenting random insults towards me and my mum on my photos. Lol apparently she's American and also I've never met or spoken to her so I'm slightly confused. But I haven't said anything mean back, I have literally managed to turn everything she's been commenting into a compliment and then thanking her and complementing her back. Take this advice!

Then she got frustrated so commented to her friends on their photos saying "hey this girl is being mean to me" (dafuq?). So I took a screenshot of our conversation with her insulting me and me being nice then uploaded it and mentioned her friends in the caption haha!

I'm too awesome.

By the way you can find me on Instagram at...

@abbiedyer [personal]

@allaroundpanem [hunger games fanpage]

@averypotterinstagram [harry potter fanpage]

☯♥☮ Abbie

*Sniff sniff*

Ugh, my nose is being such a bitch. It's just been really dry and blocked for the past 2 days, you know like you can't breathe. And I've been sniffing so much because of it as well. Not fun.

So as I mentioned I planned to yesterday, I finished my packing today. Well... almost. I haven't yet packed my clothes, hair straighteners and bedding for the week as tomorrow I'm going to see the new house (yay), Wednesday I have a hospital appointment (for my type 1 Diabetes) and then on Friday I'll be going out to move into the new house. So I'm not going to pack those until Friday morning as obviously I need them.

My bedroom I'm currently in now looks so empty. I took down all my posters and things from the walls today so it looks pretty ugly and boring.

The major negative of this week is I'm using it all as my excuse for not doing any coursework. Fml. Already know how stressed I'm going to be, because I'm a giant procrastinator!

Anyway it's late here (for my new readers ignore the time is shows I post on my blog- it's not set in the right country and I don't know how to change it as I use the app).

Earlier we had some creepers stealing the rubbish/garbage from outside my house! They took all the bags of crap I threw out which I didn't want to take with me to the new house. So I'm now basically thinking "hmm...what will they think?" All I remember putting in there was a CD player which I'd lost the plug for, some creepy porcelain dolls, scrap pieces of paper, a bunch of earphones that don't work anymore, pairs of old shoes and some stupid and not very popular Wii games. I'm sure there were a lot of other and possibly more embarrassing things but who gives a fuck, we're moving on Friday anyway!

Going to try and get some sleep now! It's awful because I kind of feel like watching a movie but I packed my DVD player away... didn't think I'd feel like watching a movie this week but oh well.

In other news, for my UK readers, wasn't Darren Criss just the cutest in Glee tonight!? I bet the whole superhero aspect of the episode was like a dream for him haha!

☯♥☮ Abbie

Busy busy busy

Damn, I'm so tired! Had a busy day doing a whole lot of shit. First I got up to go visit my dad with my brother and mum, I live with my mum so we visit every now and then. He give me some birthday stuff and also a cute wand with 18 on the top haha. We don't do much when we visit, just talk and eat and be weirdos.

After this I went out shopping and got myself some birthday gifts with some money I had been given from my parents. Never really realised how little I'd spent of it until I got home and was like "oh... guess I'm going back next weekend".

Anyway when I got home I ate a tiny bit and then decided to start packing everything in my bedroom, as well as throwing things out I didn't want to keep. Hard to believe I'm moving house in 6 days! This literally lasted like 4/5 hours. Needless to say, I was exhausted afterwards. And I haven't even finished yet! Going to finish it hopefully tomorrow as I'm not going anywhere tomorrow.

Barely ate much today so I'm feeling pretty weird, and also my nose has been so stuffy and horrid. Coughed quite a lot today, too :( Seriously, what is wrong with me?

Now lying down in bed getting ready to sleep! FINALLY

☯♥☮ Abbie

I like to move it move it

Wow. What a day, guys! So first, IT'S HALF TERM!!! So happy. Secondly, I'm moving house next Friday! Can't believe it. This all happened in one morning. And we're moving the day before my birthday as well.

I was super disappointed and depressed at first because I had to cancel everything I planned for my birthday so that we could move in over the weekend (moving day was undecided for several hours). Then my mum was like "oh yeah you also won't be able to watch TV OR go on the Internet because we have to get someone to come over and set it up again.

But then the date was decided that we were moving in on Friday and my mum has called in people to sort it out then. So hopefully I won't be too bored. My sisters and brother in law are also helping us out which is sweet. One of my sisters, Sarah, sent me a nice message on Facebook that she would sort something out and that we could hopefully go out to the cinema or something. So that's a positive!

It's sad to say but I think I'm most excited for my new bedroom. The walls are pink! Never really had fancy walls before, not that pink is suddenly fancy, but you get the jist. It's going to be so cute though! So yeah, I'm more excited to move then I was this morning. I swear I was like crying. Anway, I'm going to visit the house on Monday after my mum gets the keys so I'll hopefully post a pic of my soon-to-be room. Not the house though, that could leave it open to stalking... not that any of you are that creepy.

I was looking at the house on the iPhone street view app earlier. It's SO skinny looking on the outside, like you'd imagine the inside to be similar looking to Grimauld Place from Harry Potter. But my mum promises it's not all long and tiny like that once you get inside. I guess I'll be the judge of that on Monday!

On another note, stayed home today because my head was absolutely killing and throat was sore. Seriously... thought this sickness had ended. Oh well. Hope your Valentines Day yesterday was full of fun! Until tomorrow,

☯♥☮ Abbie

Here's sad little me earlier this morning

Are you listening!?

Had such an annoying morning today. I was sitting in my Health and Social Care class with my earphones in (because we're allowed to listen to music in there as we just spend every lesson on computers doing coursework) and my teacher looks over at me and is like... "are you listening?"

So anyway I was like "yeah miss" and I thought that was the end of it, she was just like "ok..." Then 2 seconds later she goes "I just want to make sure you're listening! ...Can you look at the board?" And she's basically talking about random shit that I'm nowhere near at starting yet because I'm like still at the beginning of the coursework. So I was like "I can't see from here though".

Miss: "Move over here then, you should also take notes".

Me: "My notebook is fastened in my bag and there's no table here to write on, and I can't type it up on my computer because I can't see from there".

And it basically just went on and on. She really is annoying at times, she expects so much from everyone. I was already falling behind on coursework and she delayed me even more by having me sit and listen to a load of crap which I could have read out of the guide/booklet/thing which tells us what we need to do and write about. We literally weren't allowed to go and work until legit like 10 minutes before the lesson ended. What a waste.

Then she was like "oh you can do ALL this over February half term can't you, that's not too bad!" BITCH. I have to go visit my dad over half term, have a hospital appointment, have to go see my sister, have other coursework that needs doing PLUS its my birthday and need some freakin' rest. This is what I mean by she asks for too much. She actually once told me directly to my face and I quote "wasn't allowed to do any other teachers work". Seriously, what teacher says that?

On another note, Happy Valentines Day everybody! Hopefully you're not forever alone like me. Lol, my college is so embarrassing, they emailed everyone like "oh hai errbody there's a blind date event in the hall at lunch come down to find ya lover!". Everyone was just like... no thanks. Another funny thing that happened was we were sat in Sociology class and somebody had sent this guy in our class a rose, and this teacher entered the room to give it to him from the secret admirer only to find out he wasn't here today. How awkward. The teacher (who is a man) was just like "oh ok... I'll take this then" and then read the note aloud! Apparently it said 'you are so so perf!' (perf = perfect, just adding that in there because the teacher didn't even know what it meant -.-)

Can't wait til Friday (half term!) and then also for next Saturday (my birthday!). My mum was being such a tease earlier telling me "guess what Abbie, this person has sent off their gift for you muahahah I know what it is" and stuff like that. No fair!

☯♥☮ Abbie

Return of the snow

So today I woke up to the sky snowing! Seriously... thought we'd had enough of that. Guess not. I just hate snow SO much! My mum was like "oh it won't settle!" Well guess what, it did.

Didn't go to college today, not because it was snowing but because my blood sugar levels have been going pretty crazy lately. I'm diabetic if you didn't already know. So I got some extra sleep throughout the day and pretty much chilled out (when I really should have been doing my homework... sorry not sorry).

As for what I did today, only one word would sum it up. Magic. Ok so basically I'm a huge YouTube fan and basically on it everyday. And today I discovered this guy, MagicofRahat, who is AMAZEBALLS at doing magic tricks and also at using his cool tricks to pull hilarious pranks on random people. I'm pretty sure I've watched all of his videos just in the space of today. This dude really is a wizard. No exaggeration. I highly suggest you check him out because he'll blow your mind.

Have to wake up at 6:30 tomorrow so going to get my sleep! Hopefully this stupid snow will have cleared up a bit, if not completely, by morning. Sweet dreams everyone!

☯♥☮ Abbie

Oh happy days

Surprisingly had a pretty good Tuesday. That's definitely saying something as Tuesdays usually suck as I have frees in college, just lesson after lesson.

To start off the day, as I journeyed to college there was an American on my bus on his way to the University right beside my college. I love America, seems like such a fun place, plus the weather is bum (in most places). I seriously could not stop staring at this guy and eavesdropped in on his conversation with his British Uni friend.

His accent was just so lovey to listen to and he spoke really loud. All I picked up from the conversation was something like "I'm from a small city" and also something about "my interest are..." as well as he wants to get a job. Nice one pal. He also looked like a mix of 2 people I would fangirl over any day: Sean Astin (plays Sam in 'Lord Of The Rings') and Richard Campbell (plays Neville Longbottom in the hit parody musicals 'A Very Potter Musical' 'A Very Potter Sequel' and 'A Very Potter Senior Year').

The second thing that made my day merrier was hearing someone's name being said by my PTE (philosophy, theory and ethics) teacher. Martin Freeman. Needless to say, this lead to more fangirling. We watched some of him in Love Actually in relation to the topic we were discussing in class. My teacher stated before playing the YouTube clip "Oh yeah it also has that hobbit/Dr. Watson guy in it". I was like, "BITCH THAT'S MARTIN FUCKING FREEMAN, ASDFGHJKL!!!" Cutest man ever.

THEN, at lunch I was forever alone as I have 0 friends (lol jk they had either finished college early or were busy doing things during their lunch hour rather than eating), and so I made my way to the college IT suite to do some work. As I walked in I experienced such a movie moment and bumped into this cute guy in the doorway. We were both just looking at each other like "sorry...uh sorry" and as saying this he just had his hands on my shoulders. I was just like "ERMAGERD!" Then I geeked out of the situation and went to sit at a computer.

Way to go me. Also Happy Pancake Day people. I'm not THAT into them so didn't eat any myself but that doesn't mean you can't!

☯♥☮ Abbie

Half term

So I went back to college today. It would have been better but I literally had a terrible nights sleep... actually I wouldn't even call it sleep. I barely got any! Not sure why but I could feel myself slipping in and out of dreams all night therefore knew I was still awake during my half unconscious sleeping.

Anyway, my cough wasn't too bad today as I was focused on getting back into the college routine. But it's still tickling my throat which is super annoying. College assembly was pretty awkward as it was pretty silent and then you could just hear me in the back coughing away. I felt bad for those sitting around me...

Found out today that we break up for half term this Friday. Can't believe I didn't even know! For you Americans, it's basically just where we have like 1 or 2 weeks off school and college. All I know is our 'terms' are your 'semesters'. Anyway, I really wish it started next Friday as then I'd have more time off closer to my birthday. In the case of breaking up this week, we go back to college 2 days after my birthday. That's kind of sucky!

Not only because of my birthday, but it means The Oscars are on the day before we go back to college. As it is broadcast in America, then that means it will start quite late in the evening/night over here in the UK. And I REALLY want, no NEED, to watch them, but I'm contemplating whether I'd want to stay up all night and face a tiring day at college the day after. Decisions.

Speaking of awards shows, I managed to watch The Grammys tonight which I missed yesterday due to having to sleep as it was on so late. Really pleased with the winners, they totally deserved it. The music, songs and new artists we saw and heard in 2012 were definitely some of the best in a while. Johnny Depp was also a bonus to the show ;) He introduced Mumford And Sons performance. Oh and also just one random thing, I never really payed that much attention on them before but the lead singer in the band Fun. is extremely attractive. I don't know... am I the only one who thinks so? Ok.

Good night/good day, wherever you are in the world!

☯♥☮ Abbie

BAFTA night

As you probably know, tonight was the night of the BAFTAS. If you're just weird and don't know what they are it's the British Academy of Film and Television Awards. They're pretty huge and a lot of stars turned up to present and receive awards.

I have to say I was more disappointed with some of the award outcomes than I was appointed.. (is that the correct word to use?) My big issue was that Jennifer Lawrence did not win for lead actress. I'm sorry BAFTA but you're pretty blind. She has won best actress all throughout the awards season so far this year and pulled out a stunning performance in Silver Linings Playbook. She should have won, she really did deserve it. But anyway congratulations to the actress who did win, can't remember her name but she won for her role in the movie Amour.

I'm glad Silver Linings Playbook did get some recognition though and won for best adapted screenplay (at least I think that was the name of the award). It really is an amazingly heartwarming, relatable and funny movie. I really do hope though that it wins lots and so does it's cast at The Oscars.

I'm really pleased Anne Hatheway won for best supporting actress too. She's been winning all awards season long, too. It was quite clear she was going to win though, what an amazing performance she gave in Les Misérables! Along with Jennifer Lawrence, she really is becoming one of my all the favourite actresses. The two of them are hilarious as well which just adds to how much I love them as people.

I was surprised at how Argo won best movie. I haven't seen it win much at the awards, only that it has been nominated quite a lot. People have also had their attention very much fixed on other movies winning such awards, e.g. Django Unchained, Les Misérables and Silver Linings Playbook. I was convinced that Les Misérables was going to win.

I really cannot wait for The Oscars because I can already tell it is going to be a blast! I've never really payed this much attention to all the awards shows before. They're actually really exciting and a lot of people I look up to and love are nominated and currently winning for different awards. So that just makes it all the more fun and exciting.

The Grammys are also on tonight. In fact I think it's on as I am writing this blogpost. This awards show is for music though and again is a very big event for those on the industry. Musicians and singers such as Justin Bieber, Elton John, Taylor Swift and Ed Sheeran will all be there this evening. So that promises a very entertaining night with lots of cool performances. Unfortunately I can't watch as I must sleep! 

Anyway on a personal note I will be going back to college tomorrow after a week of resting and complaining about how ill I am. My cough is close to gone, it doesn't hurt anymore, it just tickles. More annoying than anything because every time I cough it tickles more!

Going to sleep now as I have to wake up for college in 6 hours. Damn...that's depressing :(

☯♥☮ Abbie

P.s. If you watched, how CUTE was Martin Freeman at the BAFTAS. Seriously developing an unhealthy obsession and love for him.

Jennifer Lawrence blows kiss in BAFTA audience

Night in the ambulance

Tonight, as you can gather from the blogpost title, I was in the ambulance. I was basically experiencing really sharp and stabbing pains in my chest area and it was really unbearable. I couldn't sit, breathe or barely talk.

I was there for about 15/20 minutes and they said that it was probably happening because of how ill I've been all week. They stated that all the coughing has been using those muscles very hard and therefore they begin to ache as they are not used to it. So it caused a lot of pain in that one area.

The pain is not too bad now although I am still coughing quite a bit. Today I didn't do much but chill out. Think I will definitely be going back to college on Monday though. I know I need to go though as my friends Nareesa and Serish are doing a presentation with me on some religious revolutions such as The Arab Spring. So I want to be there and actually help out in doing it as I feel like they have for sure done the majority of the work.

Anyway, adios peeps! Doing what the ambulance woman said and getting some sleep. OMG!! However, guess what she said to me whilst dealing with my health... "I'm not a professional and you know more than me" Like seriously, you're legit telling me this right now? How crazy.

☯♥☮ Abbie

I'm a killer

So at 2am this morning I made the decision to go to the doctors again today. Great time of choice. But I didn't go at 2am if that's how it sounds like I'm describing it, I actually went at about 8:40am. I just really had to talk to them about my throat and cough. It seriously is getting to the point though where I actually struggle to breathe, especially breathe out. Possibly the worst feeling ever is not being able to breathe!

Anyway I had a different doctor today but she actually gave me some pills which is good because anything is an improvement from nothing. So I just have to take 3 a day which is totally fine, I'm ok with pill taking.

I spent most of my lousy sick day in bed exploring YouTube and downloading random games to my iPhone to play. I think I ended up downloading games because I watched a lot of Pewdiepie videos. Or you could call it stalked. He's so cute and fun though! Love him.

I've been REALLY into FPS (first person shooter) games lately, so I downloaded a few to my phone. There was one I wanted so bad but my phones a dick and has no memory left. The favourite one I downloaded was Trigger Fist. It has a selection of 4 different gameplays...

Free-for-All = This is where it is you against a bunch of other players. Everyone is out to kill each other and protect themselves. The first person to make 15 kills wins.

Team Deathmatch = This obviously involves teams. Your team vs. one other. The first team to reach 30 kills of the other team wins.

King of the Hill = I didn't understand the goal of this one very well but the game states "Hold the Hill. First team to 120 seconds wins". This is another team game (your team vs. one other).

Sacred Goat = I really enjoyed this one! It is another team game like the previous 2. There is basically a goat running around and you or one of your team mates has to hold the goat for as long as they can without the other team getting it from them. If the other team has the goat then you have to chase them down instead and try get the goat by killing their players. The first team to 120 seconds of holding the goat wins.

It's a really cool app because you can pick maps, chose from a range of weapons and unlock different things as you play. I found it difficult to play at first because you have to get used to running running and practicing your aim. But I'm not quite good and can usually get around 5 kills at the least. It's also free to download from the App Store!

Anyway, hope your day was more eventful than mine. BROFIST!

☯♥☮ Abbie

Day 4 in bed

Early this morning I was pretty happy when I woke up because I thought my cough had finally cured or at least significantly improved. But alas, I lying here in bed in the middle of the night (once again ignore the time it shows on my blog it's set in US time don't know why or how) coughing intensely.

So now, I don't think I will end up at college tomorrow either! A whole week and I haven't been at college yet. Honestly though this cough is a bitch! I can barely talk as well because my throat is sore and voice is so croaky. Worst week of my life...so far.

Anyway today I've just been chilling in bed once more, my nose is getting better I think. But moving away from my health, I'd say it's not been too bad of a day. I've had 'Castle On A Cloud' stuck in my head all day too. If you're unaware, it's a song from the hit musical, and now Academy Award nominated movie, Les Misérables. It's such a sweet and soothing song though!

I'm going to head off to my castle on a cloud now in my sleep. Goodnight people!

☯♥☮ Abbie

Minecraft fun

Well so much for getting back to college today. To be fair though, I did wake up to go and had my breakfast and everything, but then I started having like a serious coughing fit. At one point blood was coming out, not good.

Anyway at least my heads not so bad anymore, it's just the cough that needs to chill! So today I stayed home (again!) and started playing some Minecraft seeing as I now have the ability to actually move around a bit more and stay focused on things more. I love playing Minecraft, it's strangely addicting. Although I'm not the best builder, but who cares? I'm improving!

I really need to stop procrastinating though and at least do some work so that I'm not falling behind at college. After all, I won't be going tomorrow either due to the issue I discussed a few posts back. Therefore, it will have been a whole week since I have been, that is to say if I go on Friday. But I think I should be 99.9% likely to be back on Friday which is good.

I'm kind of annoyed at the doctors yesterday for not giving me anything for my situation. It's been horrible just sitting around all week waiting for a miracle of some sort in hopes that I'll all of a sudden feel better. No such luck! Sorry for all the complaining lately about how ill I am and blah blah blah. It's just hard to talk about anything other than it when all I've been doing is lying in bed coughing my lungs out whilst either sleeping, eating, watching TV, playing Minecraft or watching random YouTube videos.

Not only this, but my nose has also become pretty bad. It's been getting very stuffy and weird causing me to sniff and sneeze a lot. It particularly gets like this when I'm warm, which is SO irritating as my room is cold therefore I need the heat on to keep me warm.

I can already predict how awful and difficult it's going to be to get back into routine of college. Sleeping all day was probably not advisable!

☯♥☮ Abbie

Doctors and wearing willies

So I ended up going to the doctors today. They said they couldn't tell as of yet what was well with me but sounded like a virus. Apparently I may get better on my own but should see them again if it gets worse or not better at all.

Today I feel better than I previously have but still sick. Should hopefully return to college tomorrow but we'll see how tomorrow goes. And then tomorrow I'll have something else to talk about other than boring old me stuck in bed sick!

Short post but much love and stay healthy! Oh and I also got this hilarious email from college today. We basically do this thing each year to raise awareness for Fair Trade and so they sent out this email saying what events they hoped to put on for students and what would be needed for those to happen. I'll post the image below of the part of the email I'm talking about. I spot either a typo or my college is fucking crazy!

☯♥☮ Abbie

Someone kill me

Judging by the title, and if you read my last blogpost, you can probably see that I'm still no better today. I took the day off college as planned if I was still ill and rested in bed watching old episodes of Glee all day. Fun, yet not fun.

I swear, I've never had such an awful night in my whole life (night meaning last night not tonight). I could have sworn I was going to pass out at any moment. If I'm still this bad tomorrow I'm going to see a doctor about it.

However, I'm already pretty certain what's wrong with me. I'm experiencing pretty much all symptoms of Pneumonia. According to Bupa, symptoms include:

Cough [check!]

Fever [check!]

Breathlessness [check!]

Chest pain [check!]

Night sweats [check!]

Loss of appetite [check!]

Muscle aches [check!]

*It is also more common to develop if you have diabetes, which I do*

I seriously need someone to kill me right now... this does not feel good. AT ALL :(

☯♥☮ Abbie

Ill

I've been stuck in bed all day today, yes all day, like for real. Clearly I haven't been having a good past few days. Today I've been really ill :(

It all started when I woke up and was finding it difficult to swallow. Gradually, my throat became worse and worse and was really painful. After that my head started to ache and made me feel so dead. Then my muscles began to ache as well and so I just decided to relax in bed.

Needless to say, I've been here all day (except of course when I had to eat, etc.) It's been really horrible and boring. I've decided that I feel this way tomorrow then I will not go to college. Too much effort, especially seeing as I finish at 12pm on Mondays.

Hopefully this will all go away soon and I can continue with life as normal (woo). Really hope it does! *fingers crossed*

☯♥☮ Abbie

Sister time

Today my sister came down to visit me and my family. It's good to see family you haven't seen for a whole and catch up on everything that's been going on. My sister and I have a really close relationship aswell, making it all the more special and important to us both.

Although I can be very unsocial and withdrawn at times, therefore some moments could be interpreted as awkward as I don't always know what to say or do. But my sisters fine with that and always helps me out which is sweet. While she was here we mainly discussed my birthday plans (23rd of February everybody!).

She basically asked if I would like to go up and stay at hers so we could do something fun for the night before my actual birthday. I'm all up for that, as long as I get to watch The Oscars on the 24th! Anyway, for those of you who don't know I will be turning 18 on my birthday. Such a milestone.

I doubt much will be different, there never really is any difference whenever you have a birthday. I guess difference is only noticed as you compare 2 very distant ages or time periods... My sister said something interesting today, she's called Sammi by the way, and it was that she didn't want me to grow up. I thought that was cute. Then she told me to try and be 11 again haha! That was back when she lived at home, when we shared a room and were as close as we have ever been.

Once again I'm ending a post with "I'm going to sleep". Like I said in yesterday's post, I think it was, the time in which it states I post my blogs is set for America. Not sure why its like this or how I can change it. But yeah, it's actually 1:30am as I'm writing this right now. So sleepy!

Goodnight!

☯♥☮ Abbie

Mornings

I had such a rough morning. So much for that happy sleep in I mentioned yesterday. I woke up with my mum telling me to get up as usual -she's like my personal alarm clock- but I just couldn't get out of bed. She actually started shouting and screaming at me because I was just acting so weird and legit couldn't wake up. Jeez I must have been tired...!

I mean don't get me wrong, I'm a lazy person, but this was not the case. I literally just could not get out of bed. My mum's words sounded so vague and almost impossible to understand. That's how strange I felt and how tired I was. I don't have a clue what happened last night but clearly it didn't end well this morning.

I seriously felt dead. Mind you, death would probably feel better than how I felt this morning... So yeah, not a great start to the day it was! Then I finally managed to make it out of bed and I'm not kidding ok but I actually thought I was dead. I've been so used to the dark morning sky due to the whole clock change and weather but that's all going now and things are returning to normal. So basically when I woke up and it was sunny and bright outside I could not believe it!

My mum was also really REALLY quiet as I had breakfast, which is unnatural as she is usually talking constantly. But she was so still and silent. I just thought to myself, this has to be a dream or I actually am dead. I was so confused and felt somewhat mentally sick for a short moment. Not a good feeling...

Anyway I made it to college fine and the day was alright. Except for the fact I was 20 minutes late to one lesson. Everyone was saying the teacher wasn't here so I didn't go. But then I thought I'd email her and check and it turned out she was in college. So I arrived late only to discover there were only 5 other people that turned up to class. 5!!! Talk about awkward and an overdose of silence...

Anyway I'm going to sleep now. For some reason the time on my blog is the US time I think. No idea why as I live on the UK and all my settings are UK. Weird... Bye guys and always do your best to get or of bed in the morning, lets not be a lazy shit like me!

Oh and 1 more thing, I started rereading The Hunger Games again today. I NEVER reread books, not even Harry Potter which I am the hugest fan of. I guess it just goes to show what an awesome and thought provoking author Suzanne Collins is. I you've never read The Hunger Games then I highly suggest you do. They are amazing! If you're also a huge fan then feel free to follow my hunger games Instagram @allaroundpanem At the moment I have around 7300 followers so let's try make it to 8000! Thank you.

☯♥☮ Abbie

P.s. I made an Etsy account today and legit spent 2 hours on it. That site is the fucking bomb. So spending all my money on there.. when I next get my hands on some money that is!